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Wednesday, April 24, 2013

On stupid grins and entering law school


I love being a lawyer.  I used to tell my students all the time that since April 2007, when I wake up in the morning, no matter how horrible the night before was, I have a stupid smile on my sleepy face whenever I face the mirror --all because I know that the person smiling back at me is a geddem-lawyer.

Whenever asked, I try to remember why I wanted to become a lawyer in the first place.  I guess it all started when people kept on telling me I love to argue my way out of sticky situations when I was young.  Oldies would say “Mag-abugado ka na lang, ang galing mo sumagot,” sometimes with unmasked irritation, sometimes, with plain amusement.   Then again, maybe it began when I started to enjoy reading anything and everything I could keep my hands on.  Anyway, for the life of me, I don’t remember the first time I was ever introduced to the concept of being a “lawyer.”  In fact, even in college, when so many movies and tv series would focus on the life of a lawyer (Thank you very much, Ally Mc Beal for making me think lawyers can be quirky and actually have social lives.) I still had no idea what law school will be like, much less, how a lawyer’s life is here in the Philippines.

You see, I do not know any lawyer while I was growing up.  I was the first lawyer from both sides of both sides of my family.  All I knew from what I’ve watched in movies and on tv is that lawyers wear suits, are very smart, and rich.  Truth be told, if I had any talent leaning towards medicine, I’d be a doctor in a blink of an eye.  But somehow, despite growing up in a family of nurses and soldiers and engineers, I knew I wanted to be a lawyer.  Definitely, I wanted to be different.

My quest (naks!) to becoming a lawyer was rather complicated.  First, my paternal grandmother had qualms about my entering law school .  She said that she’s afraid I might turn into a distant aunt who took the bar and failed and was never quite right after that.  I explained to her that I just really want this and assured her I won’t turn cuckoo on her… because I already am. J  Then I didn’t pass the UP Law Interview.  I wasn’t sure then if my parents would still support my decision if I went to Ateneo instead.  The memory of the day my dad and mom told me I can enrol in Ateneo School of Law still brings tears to my eyes.   I wasn’t sure I’d survive Ateneo (being a UP maroon), but I did, and found truly great friends along the way.

But I think the real reason why I eventually jumped the law school gun was because of the simple reason that I wanted to do and BE more.  You see, before I applied for law school, I had the privilege of working for a senator during the impeachment trial of Pres. Estrada.  The slew of personalities I met during those days made me look within and ask myself… “Is this really just what I want to be for the rest of my life?”  I knew the answer as I drafted my resignation letter a few months later.  I want to go to law school because I want to be a lawyer.  Every day.  Forever.

So here I am with a silly grin on my face.  After 4 years of law school, one year to prepare and wait for the Bar results, and five years of law practice… still, with a silly grin on my face.  Because I know, I am a lawyer.  Because I know, I can make a difference and love being who I am at the same time.

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